Mentors, Thank You!

When I recall how I came to know Christ and receive Him as my personal Savior and Lord, I realize that my mentors had a great part in my spiritual journey. At the very beginning when I was still learning English in RELC (Regional English Learning Center), I came to know SNCF at its freshmen welcome party. Through the mentors, I was able to make social contact and understand Singapore culture. Above all, the mentors’ behavior touched my heart very much and this caught my interest and curiosity to find out more about their God and their belief. I thank God for SNCF mentoring program and my mentors, Mrs Chong and Wai Fann, for their love, care and prayers.

Not long ago, in a weekly meeting, a Malaysian girl, a new believer, shared with us that she was upset because she was not able to do as well as her best friend. To her, to score well in the exam and had excellent school achievement was to show her friend the grace and power of our Lord. I thank God for her openness. I could put myself in her shoes. Frankly speaking, I had the same feeling and understanding as a baby Christian. Joanna told her, "This is your own understanding, not God's. Maybe you should stop comparing yourself with your friends. Every individual is different. Do not put your happiness on man but God."

I remember when I encountered problems in my study, especially, my clinical assessment, I would express to my mentor, anger and sorrow. Every time she would read me this verse "Trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” - Proverbs 3:5-6. Actually I did not really understand it but it was a relief to me.

I had two skill assessments every semester. Unfortunately, I never passed them in the first attempt. Sometimes, I even needed to go for third attempt. One of my classmates even told me "Xiaojuan, you are a brave girl. I do not think I would be able to make it after so many times of failures.”

How I wish I am known as a brave girl not because I dare to face my failure .I was speechless at that moment and all I could do was to smile to her. But when I came home, I cried out to God "God, what is happening? I just want to do well in my study. I am so hardworking. I always practice a lot before assessments .My classmates never practice as much as I did, how come they can pass easily? God, do you really care for me? What is really wrong with me?"

God replied me by showing me Proverb: 3:5-6 again. Yes, God wanted me to lean on his understanding and acknowledge him in all my ways. He also wanted me to stop comparing with my classmates and only look to him. After so much crying, I still did not really understand this verse until the last skill assessment. I remembered the topic I chose I never expected would appear in the assessment. Previously, I failed so many times after a lot of practice. Then how was I going to pass without one single practice .My classmate told me straight away "you better tell the assessor that you will go for 2nd attempt." But in my heart, I told God that I would do my uttermost and committed the matter to his hands. I want to lean on His understanding. After praying to Him, I felt more confident. You guess what was the result? I passed and had the best result that I never had before. I was so excited not because of the good result but because I could sense the presence of God and I had learned how to put His words into action.

I am very thankful to my mentor for teaching me the words of God and help me to grow by praying for me, and by their testimony. I want to give thanks to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I know it is not my own strength that I can finish this testimony, but by God's favor I can speak something from my heart.

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XiaoJuan
3rd Year NYP Nursing Student